My mood fluctuates. One minute I seem all pinned up inside. Hard exterior and no non sense type of chick. Then I sleep. I wear myself out with trying to be so "put together", so egotistical. I sleep longer these days some might say it's depression. But when I wake up sometimes I'm angry and I look around in my environment and pick at anyone or anything and lash out attitude to them.
I invited this page and you to come and hang out with me to mash up ideas and becoming free. I no longer want to be governed by emotion, especially those that are accentuating my negative side more than the positive. Balance is something I really struggle with. So this is my vibe lounge where I can be free to talk about whatever is on my mind the way I want to talk about it. I want to be free to explore what being me is all about.

I sat tonight and smoked some weed and my ass calmed the fuck down. So I feel like there is some hope to changing the negative attitudes I abuse others with. I feel loved right now, I just took a long shower and exfoliated my skin with a chinesse scrubbing rag. I got to rub my body with it was still damp with vitamin E oil. I feel appreciated now, After I dressed I straightened up bit around the house playing some Gregory Issacs on the stereo. I am burning some nice incense that smell like earth. I'm taking it all in. Grabbing as fast as I can all these thoughts that are cascading around in my mind and writing them here for you to see. I feel free right now. One love to everybody. It's dark in this city full of lights, but I got to adapt and start making peace with myself and recognize that I am all that there is to be me. My negative attributes make it possible for my positive to balance my life (and vice versa).

Love creates change,

Harmony